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More planning and decisions

From the beginning of this site the idea was part of my ‘giving’ to achieve the success I’m looking for fully in the open, so this project, the building of the website Inspiration for Success and starting the project Inspiration for Success would be a live, real life, example of achieving success following the principles of success as described by Napoleon Hill. And somehow achieving the success I’m looking for, like receiving one million dollar, does indeed come with the type of things Napoleon Hill describes in his book Think and Grow Rich.

But the whole thing is starting to make sense, as e.g. except from the start I missed a lot of the desire, which as far as I can figure out goes back that I somehow lost the belief of earning or getting (or receiving) any significant amount of money. And main reason why I’m not where I want to be related to all kinds of goals and results I described has obviously to do with planning, especially proper planning, making flawless plans. As far as I can figure out also I may be too much of a dreamer and not realistic enough in goals and especially plans related to these goals, so my team does not believe where we are going and how we are going there and that we will get there.

I consider a major achievement though applying the principle of the Master Mind, where I tended to mix team and Master Mind. And as far as I can figure out now a Master Mind is something else than a team or a board as I had and have in mind for Inspiration for Success. What I experience now is that the team mainly acts as a Master Mind, in this case especially giving feedback on things I want where they consider it often unrealistic. And the Master Mind is bigger, as today I received an e-mail from a ‘hidden’ Master Mind team member that I didn’t like. But what was said in it was probably true and is valuable feedback, so certainly ‘Master Mind’ feedback. The Master Mind in my case often puts me back to reality, to being realistic, even though Napoleon Hill also kind of confirms that if you really want something extraordinary, something new, you may want to stick to it, no matter what. However, of course reality check, especially on plans seems to be important, especially if you’re a dreamer like me.

Persistence also seems to be something else than I thought as I think I am more stubborn than persistent. And according to Napoleon HIll, mentioning Henry Ford, there is nothing really wrong with being stubborn, but I guess it’s useful to at least know the difference and find a way how to convert stubbornness into persistence. In my case I found out patience is an important keyword quite some time ago and it is being confirmed by the team.

So why did I call this post ‘more planning and decisions’. Well, the project definitely needs better planning as basically there is no real practical plan. And there are some decisions I did not make yet, like how to deal with my daily post related to creating proper, researched, well written content. At least two team members keep reminding me of the need for better content and they are right. However, i also don’t want to give up on my daily post, which somehow is important to me. At first for SEO, like becoming displayed as news, but also as it is kind of the basis, the origin of the site.

However, I’m not sure if the team means i should stop with my daily post as I doubt that would really harm the site. The issue may be that I could better focus my time on quality content than a ‘daily post’ just for the sake of a daily post. Well, just ask i guess.

Guilt

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Today it struck my mind that it’s completely crazy to feel bad about things that you did in the past and that worked out bad, even though they have effects that you experience. I made some bad decisions related to money, to investments and that has put me in a very bad position. And i don’t know how to solve it. And I feel very guilty and bad about it. And I have no clue how to solve it. But today I suddenly realized that I can’t change the past and that I can’t change the situation I’m in right now. Or maybe never.

And the weird thing is that this whole thing goes back to beliefs I have and to thoughts like what other people think about it. And those beliefs and this ‘what other people think about it’ create an awful amount of guilt and ‘feeling bad’ in me. And looking at it, at how I feel and what effect it has on me that can’t be a good thing. Because especially this guilt is having a devastating effect on me. And not only me, but also on my environment, the people around me.

So I thought I should write about this, as I’m quite sure I’m not the only one being confronted with some bad decision or bad decisions made in the past. And suffering so much from it.

And no, I didn’t find an answer yet, I didn’t find answers yet. As the main problem right now is that I am in a situation i don’t like and that I don’t know how to solve it. And that it affects my life in a very bad way. So this is kind of reality and a reality I don’t like and that also kind of paralyzes me.

The good thing though now is that I’m starting to realize why some people are not moving anymore, don’t do anything anymore. As the ‘issues’ they’re confronted with are too big, too big to oversee or to overcome. And I’m a person who doesn’t easily give up. You may even say never gives up. But my current financial situation feels so hopeless that, indeed,sometimes, or even mostly lately, I just don’t move anymore, just don’t do anything anymore. Because it’s just too big for me to deal with. I see no way out.

So yes, I always had answers to people, still have even. Sometimes my own opinion or sometimes just quotes. But being here now, even with all that I know, even with the best quotes and stuff and with the best self help sites and blogs and stuff i read, I often don’t know what to say anymore to myself.

And yes, today I somehow got moving again, after quite a period of being quite inert. But i still don’t see a way out and that affects my life and the life of the people around me in a very negative way.

But somehow this is also what inspiration for Success is all about. Give people hope, give people inspiration when they don’t see it themselves anymore.

So yes, maybe this experience is good for me, is still something given to me. So I would be more understanding about people who just don’t see how to get out of a bad, a very bad situation that they consider impossible to solve.

Bur for now I can only say to myself that I can’t change my past decision, my past decisions. And that looking back, trying to learn from it would be OK. But feeling guilty about it or thinking about what other people think about it as I do makes no sense, just makes things worse.

So let’s say to ourselves that we should avoid feeling (too much) guilt about something we can’t change anymore. And that there is always hope, that things can always be better, even better than the past and even better than anything before. Even if we can’t believe that right now, as belief is just belief, something that someone believes.

My desire document

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A very important date in my desire document was September 10, 2013. Maybe the most important day of my life, at least it was when I wrote the initial version of the document which must have been September 10, 2012. And the date passed with not much feeling of success, which was kind of an anti-climax. But maybe it was the same thing a sportsman feels when he passes the finish and just knows that he made it, that he could have made it, and is just tired of the game he played. Because somehow I made my goal, a goal that was impossible at the time of writing. So I don’t feel too excited about having achieved my goal, at least in the spirit of the goal although I reached the goal litterally as I wrote it. So a big success, but there are too many things in my life that I desire to be different from what it is now, so I guess, I know I don’t sound excited right now. But what i wanted to share is that I am starting to see the power of a desire document and that I am starting to believe that I can indeed achieve all the things that i wrote there in the spirit of the Principles of Success.

So several things in my mind and the first is that I want to write my personal desire document for this project. And going back to the origin of the project I have to write it myself and it has to be mine, it has to be a personal desire document. And i am struggling now with my leadership role. As I kind of don’t want it, even though one of my desires is to stand in the spotlight. And somehow I always wanted to stand in the spotlight and I think never really stood, but I am starting to realize what price I, you have to pay when you are standing in the spotlight. So I am also starting to understand more of the problems leaders are dealing with. It looks so nice being famous and being rich and yes, I still want to be that, both. And it’s becoming a real desire now. But I’m also starting to see that there is a price to pay, a price that may be bigger than I thought, bigger than I expected. And so yes, a leader also deserves ‘more of the pie’ than the followers. I can see and feel that more now, even though that’s not really what I want anymore, having more than others, which I also always wanted and what may have blocked my way to riches, to abundance.

Anyhow, today felt like the time to make a desire document related to my desire to have one million dollars through this project. As recently I also went back to the origins of the project which was basically what someone called ‘a get rich quick scheme’. And I guess he was right. And I am very thankful for him saying that to me. As he made me realize what I was doing and I guess it was not really what I wanted. So yes, all adversity carries within it the seed of a greater benefit. I am also seeing the truth of that now, as if this person had not made that remark to me the project would not have been where it is now.

So let’s get to work and take the leadership role by writing my first draft of the desire project for my short term monetary goal with this project. And it may still be a ‘get rich quick’ desire. But I don’t care anymore. As I am also starting to see that there is nothing wrong in wanting something, no matter what other people say. And also the origin of the project and things like ‘the world likes success’ even needs me to be rich. As that’s what success means to me related to this project. That is also the success as described in Think and Grow Rich.

And yes, I keep kind of apologizing for wanting a lot of money. As I am still kind of thinking like the people on the way to poverty. But I want out of it and yes, I also want you out of it. And indeed, me being rich doesn’t harm anybody, doesn’t harm you. On the contrary. Money grows on trees and we have been taught the wrong things for quite some time. The world is abundant, just look around you. And somehow we’re blocking that with all our fears and negative ideas about money.

And I would like to share more of this process of mine, where my current thinking comes from. But maybe it’s just a process and maybe that’s why the call it The Secret.

And keep in mind, about willing to give. I am giving away part of my privacy here. I am willing to state bluntly that I want one million dollars through this project, meaning from you, the people who I am trying to serve. But I’m starting to believe that’s ok, if you’re doing it the right way. But again, that’s about what probably all the rich people know and you and I don’t (yet) as we’re not rich. And if you are rich you will probably not reading this post, but if you are I’m also very happy to see your comments about what I am writing here.

Pause

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Well, this thirty day Law of Attraction document has really done something to me. I accept my moods more and I accept other people and other people’s moods more. And it made me more easy on money, on spending. And the last I didn’t really write about here I think as somehow it didn’t come up. And I wasn’t really thinking about it when I was starting this post, but well, this seems the right time.

One of the ‘exercises’ in the document is to spend each day a certain amount of virtual money. And that amount is increasing. It starts with 1,000.00 units of your currency and it increases every day with that amount. And sometimes I still feel like a fool doing this, as I kept continuing this, but somehow it makes sense to do it. And the weirdest thing began when I started with the program. At first I wanted to use the US dollar as the currency. But somehow it didn’t feel right and I decided to stick with ‘my’ current currency, the Philippine peso. But spending an amount starting with PHP 1,000.00 every day and increasing with that amount every day is something completely different than spending USD 1,000.00 increasing with USD 1,000.00 every day. So I thought. And somehow I thought I felt a bit stupid starting with ‘only’ PHP 1,000.00 instead of USD 1,000.00. As after a year I would end up spending PHP 365,0000.00 per day instead of USD 365,000.00 is a completely different thing as the US dollar is around 40 or 45 times as much as the peso.

So I thought I was limiting myself in abundance, using PHP instead of USD. And maybe I was. But something completely different is happening. As as of the moment it’s around 45 days ago that I started doing this. So as of the moment I am spending a virtual amount of PHP 45,000.00 a day instead of USD 45,000.00 a day. But I can’t even spend the PHP 45,000.00 and I often even forget about it during the day as I just don’t need it and just wouldn’t know what to spend it on And while writing this I wouldn’t even know what to spend USD 45,000.00 on. Every day! And one of the rules is you have to spend it, you cannot give it away or ‘just save’ it. So while writing this actually I’m happy I chose the Philippine peso and not the US dollar. As I wouldn’t really know what to spend USD 45,000.00 on today, let alone USD 400,000.00 PER DAY about one year from now.

Ah, and what I actually wanted to tell you is that the amount increased so quickly, even starting with this PHP 1,000.00 per day increasing with PHP 1,000.00 per day that even today I wouldn’t have a clue what to spend it on. Lately often late at night, just before sleep I just make something up what to spend it on. I just forget about it during the day. And mostly it’s savings for my Bali holiday and savings for my Pajero, so it’s not even real spending ‘today’.

And yes, of course I know it’s not real money. And I can’t use it in real life and believe me, I could use some real money very much right now, more than ever. But that’s not the point.

The point is that I see more now what I really want. I don’t want the money, I just want the things I can buy with it. And it’s not even much what I really want related to the income group I think I belong to. And yes, I lowered my standards a bit being in such a financially rough shape I am now and I’ve never been before and couldn’t even imagine myself in. But again, that’s not the point. The point is that with just knowing that every day there is an increasing amount coming in I see more now that it’s better to live by the day, just use what you need, what you really want. And the point is that I don’t need ‘everything’, I don’t need hundred million dollars or so. And the point is that if I had it I wouldn’t even know what to spend it on. It’s just some kind of safety, but that kind of safety doesn’t exist in the world and somehow I’m starting to believe that it’s also not needed, maybe even unwanted.

Ah, and the main point is that I somehow learnt from it that worrying about ‘money’ doesn’t make sense. And that all those worries and ideas I have in real life about money indeed somehow prevent money coming in, prevent ‘abundance’.

And yeah, I really would like to continue writing about this and I can really recommend that you do this exercise also, maybe unless you’re a multimillionaire. And no, I have no clue where this goes in real life and of course I am very worried somehow, somewhere and I should be. But the exercise taught me things about money and about what worrying does. And what ‘knowing’ does. Things I didn’t know and didn’t realize until I did this exercise.

So yes, go for it and let me, let us know your experiences, if they are the same as mine or not.

Power

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Gentle power We have the book “The concise 48 laws of Power” of Robert Green and when I first saw it and read from it I didn’t like it, because power has (still) to me a very negative feeling around it. And most of the book I don’t like, because, well, until now, I had the feeling it’s about the negative, the power from fear kind of power. It is weird thought that the word power has something negative in it, because my core qualities are “Joyful, loving and powerful”. So maybe that’s also one of the reasons i am where i am, as I have resisted, and still do I think, one of my core qualities, one of my core talents.

Anyhow, somehow, yesterday or two or three days ago I opened the book again (I often follow my instinct and just open books if I feel ‘something’) I found a remarkable quote in the book:

“Ye have heard that it hath been said, An eye for an eye and a tooth for a tooth: But I say unto you, That ye resist not evil: but whosoever shall smite thee on thy right cheek, turn to him the other also. And if a man will sue thee at the law, an take away thy coat, let them have their cloak also. And whosoever shall compel thee to go a mile, go with him twain.” – Jesus Christ (Matthew 5: 38-41)

So it seems that power is something different than I have in mind. It seems certainly not to be the thing that I thought it was: overruling other people by force. It is something else and even a very useful thing, something people expect, even need as I also found out with my team that expected direction and clarity from me, where I considered those things something like applying my ‘power’.

Something to ponder more about.

And how do you look at power? Do you exercise it? Do you like to follow powerful people? Do you like to have power? How do you use it?.