So where do I stand right now? I still certainly don’t feel successful, especially as my financial situation is still not good and as my partner went away again two weeks ago, very angry. And while I kept going very well since he left, better than ever, yesterday I kind of collapsed emotionally.
But still, somehow my self confidence has grown enormously since my deep down one and a half year ago, the period where the ideas of Napoleon Hill came to me in the form of a book given to me, the book Think and Grow Rich. And somehow these ideas, or at least working from these ideas, from this book, seem to start making sense. And no, it’s not the only book that gave me ideas to work from, but somehow it was the starting point.
So yes, I was very down yesterday. But imagine, yesterday, not the whole two weeks I was alone, where before I was much more affected with these type of things. And also, the idea of definite purpose and not changing decisions (too easily) makes life much easier, including stating dates and stuff and what I am willing to give. As e.g. I now don’t have to think so much anymore when people are asking me things like what I want and why I want it. As it’s just all written down in my desire document and everything that happens to me just gets its place in the ideas that written down there. And I really mean everything that happens to me, positive or negative. As the negatives I just turn into positives, into opportunities. That is my mindset now.
And somehow it is starting to pay off, as today I had some discussions about business, really large business, business in the sense of the things Napoleon Hill writes about in Think and Grow Rich. And somehow these things came to me, I did not really search for it or did effort for it. So indeed there seems to be something like Infinite Intelligence or Law of Attraction that goes beyond what we can see. But the main thing I felt today was more self confidence, like just stating what I want, without excuses or anything, even if it is unreasonable. And apparently just the way I talk about things, just the way how I want things, just stating what I want to happen seems to make an enormous impression on other people. And again, I’m not forcing it, it just comes natural, it’s just the result of the process I’ve been in for the last few years.
So no, I definitely don’t feel successful yet. But something did change, and it is changing big. And yes, of course I am also still scared, but different.
Thank you Lord!
A second thing I started some time ago was putting one peso (PHP) in a small container. And to not let me or someone else use it when not really necessary I put a small note in it, on top of the coins saying “Please do not touch until the right time”. And the strange thing is that I started this when I had virtually no money at all. And another strange thing is that I never used it, even though sometimes it’s tempting to just get some change or something. Even more strange is that this small container is overflowing right now, so I’ll have to look for a bigger container, and that where I somehow over time decided to put ten pesos every day instead of one peso. So maybe the right time will never come, although today I used my container with coins to explain something to someone who said he couldn’t do something because he had no money.