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Self analysis, question 11

For the post of today what first came into mind is that somehow I felt a lot better today. And I have no clue how that happened or how I had any influence on that and that is still very strange to me as everywhere I read you can do things to get yourself out of a rut or out of a bad mood. But in my experience you cannot, or at least I can not. At least I couldn’t the last few days and I hate phrases like ‘I can’t’ or ‘I couldn’t’, but maybe that is just a weakness in me or maybe my biggest weakness, that I can’t admit that there are things beyond my control.

But wait a minute, my mam’s ‘I can’t’ that triggers my negative feelings may be something different than my ‘I can’t’, so maybe worth investigating more. As my ‘I can’t’ mostly (always?) means something like ‘I don’t want to’ or ‘I don’t feel like it’, while my mams ‘I can’t’ mostly sounds like some kind of excuse.

Anyhow, even though my mind is more on the above, the ‘I can’t’, I don’t want to write a whole post about that and I’m not even sure why, so I’ll just continue with question eleven of the self analysis questions from Think and Grow Rich“To which do you devote most time, thinking of success, or of failure?”.

And I have been thinking about this question since yesterday and also earlier, and the first that comes into my mind that I don’t think so much about failure or success, but that I think most of my current financial situation and my problems with work and career and not so much about failure or success. Or actually I think most about how I got here and how I can get out of it. And that leads me to something like not having the faintest idea how I got here, or more like what I could have done differently to prevent my current ‘worst than I could ever imagine’ financial situation. Or how I could get out of it, what I could do differently.

So while thinking further, of course I know how I got here. And maybe I was too eager to have a relationship again, like ending up with the wrong partner. And I could have sold the house or I could still sell it. And the last would certainly solve my immediate financial problems, or what I experience as my biggest problem, the loans I have that are far beyond what I could ever imagine anyone having, especially me, being against any type of loan for living or pleasure, which is where most of the money went.

And relating the above to the question what I think about more, failure or success, I think most of the time, practically all the time, about my previous failures, the things that brought me down. And I can’t even imagine any success, although while thinking about it now of course I did achieve great successes. So let’s just write these down:

  • I graduated high school in one setting with good grades.
  • I have a Masters degree in Mechanical Engineering.
  • My first relationship lasted for twelve years, which I guess I can still call a success, even though it failed in the end.
  • I found a new partner, an Asian partner, something I always dreamed of.
  • After being fired at my first employer in a very bad way I found a new job very soon after.
  • I worked for KPMG for about four years, something most people can’t say and where I think I learned most in my career.
  • I learned myself programming, including web programming, where the last is much more difficult than the first.
  • I have been writing every day now for more than two years, including sending a daily quote to more than 100 people.
  • I have made the bed in our bedroom for more than two years now, every day.
  • I built the first version of DoctorsConnect with amazing speed.
  • I started a business, and even though it kind of failed I am still working on making it work.
  • I acquired the most beautiful house in Cagayan de Oro City, maybe even of the whole Philippines.
  • I managed to keep my second relationship going for about twelve years now. I even managed to repair it after a breakup.
  • I kept my business going after having a severe motorcycle accident, including working from the hospital from the ICU
  • And I guess I could keep on going…

Wow, so that is something, just writing down some of my successes. And I didn’t know what it would do, but it really felt good doing that, it seems to have made a shift in my mindset right now, so I can certainly recommend doing something like what I just did.

So maybe instead of keeping analyzing or wanting to analyze everything I might just start thinking about my successes, the things that went right in my life or the things I achieved.

And enough for today I guess, as the above really gives me something to think.

Halfway success

Well, I just got the e-mail from Alden Tan in my inbox and I was very impressed with his post about how to achieve success. So not only about success, but also very inspiring.

So for today I just want to recommend reading his post as it is better, much better than what I could ever produce.

Impatient?

For the last week or so I have been a bit impatient, as I wanted the site to be ready for 2015. And that meant among other things updating the code for displaying the daily inspirational quotes for the page daily inspirational quotes 2015. As I hard coded the checking of the year in that code, which I don’t consider good programming practice, but was a good enough solution until now and could be good enough for at least the near future.

So I intended to wait until it was really needed, but today I couldn’t hold it anymore, so I just created that page and added the necessary few lines of code to handle the display of the 2015 quotes. And somewhere in my mind is that another update is needed, but maybe I’m wrong and was it just creating an additional page for my gratitude diary in the Dutch site.

And actually I don’t want to do retrospective things related to the ‘past year’ or do ‘good intentions things’ for the coming year, but somehow it seems that is hard to escape. And Napoleon Hill even recommends it, a yearly check on progress, so maybe I’ll still do that one of these days.

And it is strange, as Inspiration for Success, kind of starting with my Dutch blog now more than two years ago, somehow is completely different than when I started it. Or not really different, but more like it has progressed, it has grown. The strange thing with it is though that the traffic went down recently, quite a lot, where I expected it to go up all the time, as I have continued to write every day, except Sundays. And that hurts a lot as I expected, as I presumed, that the traffic would go up, especially as I kept writing. And recently I have even written more than average as I also added and changed some pages and added functionality for the top inspirational sites part.

And believe me, that hurts a lot, that the traffic went down, went down a lot. And that the number of links towards the site does not increase, or at least not visible. As it still takes a lot to write every day and also trying to improve the functionality of the site. And no, I couldn’t find the strength to improve the inspirational tools, a part of the site I thought could be, would be, very useful for people.

So yes, it is very good to experience the satisfaction of writing every day. And seeing that in the graph of the number of indexed pages in Google Webmaster Tools. And of somehow see the site grow also in other ways, even though it is very slow. And somehow I know that if I just continue, if I just persist adding stuff to the site, the traffic will increase. And with that also the use of the inspirational tools. And the subscribers to the daily inspirational quote.

But no matter my personal progress in discipline and habits and such, it would be nice to see the traffic and the use of the inspirational tools grow. As yes, I am quite sure that would inspire me to do more, to improve and expand Inspiration for Success in a way I had in mind when I started it.

So yes, if you would be willing to write a comment; or just check the inspirational tools; or give some feedback; or sign up to the daily inspirational quote; or create a link to the site or one of the pages in the site. That would really inspire me, really make me happy.

But if not, that’s also okay. As I have learned that with persistence, yes combined with the right mindset and some other things, you can achieve anything. So certainly a bit more traffic and better use for Inspiration for Success.

Change?

Well, it seems something is different with my new project, with DoctorsConnect, so I decided to push through (again) and buy the domain doctorsconnect.ph. But of course I am a bit scared as it seems I am going full speed and my business partner seems to go a bit slower. Which is logical as, fortunately or unfortunately, I have the time for it and I think my business partner doesn’t. And I don’t really mind doing more, as I like the project, believe in it and also like working on it, but some memories of previous projects come into my mind. Memories about where I was in similar situations, working very hard, investing even, but finding myself alone in the end, without a business partner and with a product I did not know how to sell.

Some things are different though, as I have a better feeling with my current business partner. And I think the project is easier to market, even if I would have to do it alone. Also I learned from my previous projects to protect myself better with better legal agreements, written down agreements.

And maybe the most important is a changed mindset, as I know know the Principles of Success, where one of the principles is that every failure, or maybe better use the word defeat, brings me closer to my goal. And yes, I believe now more than ever that with persistence there is only one outcome possible: success. And I know more about leadership and that keeping a harmonious relationship with your team, with your Master Mind is crucial. And I am a bit scared writing about being scared, about repeating the same situation again, as I fear that that may damage the harmony with my partner. Especially as he asked me about the name of this site today, meaning he will probably read this and read more about my failures and mistakes and feelings. Things some people say I should not share with especially business relations.

But I guess I will just take the positive outlook. As I have nothing to hide and my feelings and my situation and my past are just my feelings, my situation and my past, nothing more, nothing less. And they have nothing really to do with my future, at least not in a negative way I think, as what I am bringing to this project is all my experience and knowledge and even a large part of the product, as the new system builds of course on the things I built for the other projects. And looking at what I have built in the time of a few weeks, not even full time, I think I can be proud of myself and I think hardly anybody in the world could build something like what I have built, especially not with the same quality, the same robustness.

So yes, I am carefully optimistic, optimistic that this project will succeed, where previous similar projects failed. And yes, maybe this is part of the help that was promised, by God, by my Higher Power.

So thank you Lord, for this new opportunity.

No internet

Strange to sit here in a coffee shop where I ordered something to drink and a piece of cake as I wanted to use the internet to write my daily posts and update my (Dutch) gratitude diary. And after ordering and getting the password I found out the internet was slow, very slow, as none of the sites I opened. And it is so bad that the WordPress editor does not even properly open, so after typing some words for my Dutch blog item I was kind of stuck. And it is a bit amazing, as internet in The Philippines is supposed to be bad, but not this bad. As with my technical knowledge and skills I looked a bit further what was going on. And it seems the connection is Globe and amazingly more than half of the tcp/ip packets don’t seem to arrive. And I guess you don’t know what that means, but it means among other things that traffic will just increase, as those packets will be resent as tcp/ip is designed to deliver information in a reliable way. So while waiting, like ten minutes, fifteen minutes or more, I was thinking what is the positive side of this. And at first I couldn’t really find anything. As the Globe system just seems to suck and of course I will blame the Globe technicians that they don’t know what they are doing and such things. And I guess that is true.

So I found myself with a very slow, unusable internet connection, at least for the purpose I am using it for, kind of waiting for either something working or my partner and some friends returning.. And yes, again, with my new mindset of persistence and not giving up and trying to find some way of getting things done, I found at least ‘something’ as I realised that I can just write my posts in a text editor and upload them later to the site or sites. So I can just write my daily blog post or blog posts, and maybe in the mean time the WordPress editor will load, so I may even be able to just copy this text to the site.

And another positive thing is that, as you may know if you follow my posts, was already considering to improve my writing, like maybe even combining the writing of several days into one weekly post or so, instead of daily writing a small and not so good item.

So yes, even in this situation, where of course I am somehow I am still very annoyed, as I can’t do what I wanted to do, it is possible to find something possible and finding and learning new ways, other ways to do things, like writing my daily blog post.

And the strangest thing I am experiencing right now is even that this new thing of writing a blog post in a text editor seems to put my mind in a whole different ‘mode’. Like I am just activating different parts of my mind that give me new ways of doing things, new ways of thinking.

So yes, even though I was annoyed and still kind of am, because it seems I won’t be able to post this post right now, tonight, there is something good in it. And I don’t even feel that bad and start even to feel good as I am enjoying different parts of my mind being opened, creative parts of my mind. Parts that my even help me now to find new ways of doing things, where I may also feel stuck.

So yes, you can find something good in any situation.

And my partner and friends just joined and I realised on the other side of the street is OK Pension where my friend and somehow also I have good connections. So I just went there and just copied the above text here. So again achieved to publish my daily post on the day itself!