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Fake it

I still don’t feel like writing here anymore, so what was in my mind today was what to do with that. And the answer ‘fake it’ came to me, although of course that is not a solution in the end.

And the ‘fake it’ I encountered at least two times, once when I read or heard about a priest who did not believe anymore in God. And he was advised to just ‘fake it’ (in order to keep his job etc.).

And I also heard it in a movie. Forgot the name, but it was a spy movie with Al Pacino as one of the main characters.

Anyhow, I can’t keep faking it, so I have to find some kind of solution to keep writing here.

And the best thing is to achieve success, as that is what the site is all about in the end.

Flexible discipline and habit

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I am still struggling with going the extra mile and discipline and habit as right now I am tired (again) and don’t really feel like writing a post here and certainly not the next self analysis post.

And yes, I am seeing and feeling the power of habit as I am writing here now. And I am still making the bed every day, even though sometimes, very sometimes, just before I go to bed. But I do it.

And I also feel the habit of doing my little exercise in the morning, even though recently I was not able to do the sets of twenty as is basically my goal, but mostly sets of five that I mostly try to increase over the days.

So yes, these habits have brought me something and they are very powerful. But I am starting to realize I also seem to have developed the habit of being unhappy (instead of happy) and I have no clue how to change that, as all these self help ‘tricks’ don’t seem to help.

And yes, somehow I still don’t feel like I am able to control my thoughts, maybe the most important thing to do in life, maybe the most important message from Think and Grow Rich, from Napoleon Hill.

And I feel like I (still) lost all my desire and recently I lost almost all my sex drive, even though the last always was one of my wishes. But now I have it it’s no fun, as indeed I believe that sex is the major driver of human action, and I am also kind of experiencing that right now, as without my sex drive everything seems so dull, so useless, so aimless.

Ah, and I got back to my daily planning, and it is working, as it gives me some direction for every day and helps me finish things and makes me feel somehow kind of satisfied when I notice that I have all the things that I planned for a day.

So yes, I know all the tricks and even apply many or most or all of them, even keeping a daily gratitude diary.

But no, I am still not living, there is still something missing and I have no clue what, or how to get it, even though I feel it must be there.

So no, not a positive post today, although writing this down, making this analysis, could be the start of finding a solution, the solution. The solution how to live and enjoy life.

Ah, one good thing, as while finishing this post Ulla came to me, the dog that is still alive because,. next to other things, I decided to bring her to the vet, do everything I could to make her survive. And her coming to me just now gave me a very good feeling, even made me kind of feel happy.

Self analysis, question 49

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I am a bit scared of today’s question as it is again about people around me. And I don’t have many people around me, neither private nor in business and that kind of worries me. And I have thought about that a lot and I still can’t find the answer why, except that it appears that most people seem to experience that I have a negative attitude and that I am complaining a lot. And there must be something to that, even though I can’t get that confirmed from everyone and everywhere.

So mostly I am alone and related to today’s question that may make it difficult to answer as today’s question is “Are your intimate associates mentally superior or inferior to you”?

Or maybe not, as I guess people may consider me thinking always to be superior of them as I often think I am ‘right’. And I am pretty intelligent, so I may even actually often be right (about intellectual things).

So right now I feel like I have no intimate associates, but if I think about the people I am dealing with related to business I think they are mostly about equal to me, even though I may still be more intelligent than them. But with the last I may be wrong as many people I deal with have some kind of University degree, so they must also be intelligent.

And related to the question about being mentally superior or inferior it comes to my mind that emotionally I guess most people are superior to me, at least that is what I believe now. But this may not be true as in some (emotional) areas I think I am pretty good, even though people may not always see that.

So something to think more about, the being or feeling superior or inferior to other people.

Body language

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I know body language means something else, but I was thinking about listening to my body, so the language of my body telling me it, or I, am very tired (and should stop).

So what is this that I often go against my body language believing that is what successful people do, like ‘going the extra mile’ (against your own feeling) or doing those extra counts of physical exercise like real sports men do? Or don’t they.

As I also believe in Infinite Intelligence and that you should follow your feelings, as in the end your feelings are the only thing you have, and this is what I believe the Law of Attraction is all about.

So I guess it may be wrong what I have been thinking for a long, long time, that successful people go against their own feelings and that that is the reason why they are successful.

So let’s think about this a bit more, although feelings are also just feelings and ratio is another tool that has been given to man and could also be used.

Happy and grateful

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Strange to start this post with the title Happy and grateful as it is very rare that I feel happy and/or grateful and one of our dogs is still with the vet as she is very sick and may not even survive her illness. But part of my happiness is related to the dog being sick and me spending quite some time this afternoon with her as I am very affected with these kind of things and it is very hard for me to put my mind to something else if something emotional is going on in my life, like a dog who has been with us for around ten years and who is very sick.

So sitting with Ulla this afternoon for quite a long time made me feel a bit stupid, as who is going to spend so much time with just a sick dog who is taken care of very well by the vet and the staff at the vet. But it gave me quite some time to contemplate about that and I realized that it is just part of me being affected so much with something like this and having difficulty to put my mind somewhere else. So I was just doing the right thing, as I had some time in my planning left and didn’t want to go home and didn’t have anywhere else to go, so what would be the best place to be? Well, with the sick dog of course, so I could also check how she was doing. And I was thinking about Napoleon Hill and the ideas of being affected by opinions of others and I was indeed realizing that my main concern was the opinion of the vet, presuming she was thinking that this crazy stupid emotional foreigner was so crazy spending hours with his dog.

And I realized that I just presumed she was thinking that and I may be pretty wrong with that. So it may have just been my own thoughts putting this negative idea in my mind, even possibly putting something fully wrong in my mind. And the next thing I realized that I and only I can and could decide how to spend my time best. And that I was just there for all the right reasons as I didn’t want to go home anymore and might as well spend my time with the dog as anywhere else. So I was there for all the right reasons, no matter what anybody else would think. It was fully logical, even if other people probably wouldn’t understand. As they didn’t know my reasoning and my planning and the way I am built.

So yes, I was kind of happy having learned to being not so much affected by the opinions by others anymore, even though of course I still had the feeling a bit of feeling stupid. So yes, there is some gratefulness there also, as this realization made me feel grateful.

The thing that really made me grateful though was an e-mail I just received, an e-mail giving me a way out of a very important issue, giving me a gentle way out of a very large mistake I made quite some time ago, a mistake that was bothering me a lot as the consequences didn’t seem to go away, consequences that could have a large effect on my life.

And I felt especially grateful that somehow things seem to turn around, that somehow slowly good is coming to me where I had so many bad years.