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Who am I writing to or for

I am still subsribed to zenhabits.net and today I found an interesting post about blogging, about writing onine, as I do here, in this site, today, now. And it made me think that I am not really writing to someone, except that my writing is still focused on people who are looking for success, like I still do. And going back to the history of my writing, of the history of this site and why I am writing every day maybe it is useful to analyze a bit more, as I have already been planning, how to continue with this site, with my writing every day.

Anyhow, the first thing that came up while thinking who am I writing for is that my original idea was that all my writing would start making sense if and when I have achieved the success I am looking for. As from that position you could read all my complaints and defeats and maybe failures and whatever I wrote, to see that no matter what, no matter how you feel, no matter where you stand, you can still get where you want to be, you can still achieve the success you are looking for.

But what is success anyhow, as somehow I still put myself down that I didn’t achieve success yet. But that is only by my own measurement, by relating everything to what I have defined as success and everything that I have defined as failure or defeat to where I stand, to what I have achieved. And yes, looking at my desire document I am not successful by measuring to the ultimate goals I have written in there. But somehow I am living my desire document and somehow I achieved major milestones in relation to my ultimate goals. As you may or may not know, when I wrote my desire document, virtually everything in there was impossible, literally impossible. But looking back, soon after I wrote it, my one and only major goal turned into something like very likely or very probable, And slowly, over the last two years, my desire document became my life, as everything in there now somehow is at least possible, where I can even say that everything that is happening in my life right now is somehow related to the desires and goals that are written down there.

And I can’t really explain how that exactly works, but it is somehow logical looking back, and all gets back to the six steps as written down by Napoleon Hill. And somehow I made large progress on where I want to be and who I want to be and how I want to live, because at least I have turned my life around in a way that related to e.g. the financial debts I have, I at least stopped borrowing extra money and started paying some things again, even though my debt still is going up because of unpaid interest and such. But I did make a turn, and I guess you could call that a success.

Some other successes that are worth mentioning is that since I started making my bed, our bed every day, I literally never skipped one day doing that, although there were some circumstances like sleeping elsewhere or not sleeping at all or having some weird schedule. Basically the only thing is that I sometimes have done it late at night, just before going to bed, but I still did it. Another thing I did was putting one peso every day in a box, no matter how little money I had. And again, I started that habit when I had no money at all and didn’t even know how to buy food or feed the dogs one week from the day I started. And the weird thing with that habit is that one day I decided to put five peso in that box instead of one, as at that time I was not that tight on money anymore. And one or two months ago I decided to increase the daily amount to twenty peso and also with this habit I never failed. And there are more things I improved, turned around, like making a daily planning and executing that planning every day, even though the last few weeks I didn’t really make a planning on paper. But I still did it, even when not written down. And not to forget my daily sending of an inspirational quote, my daily writing of a post in this site, my daily update of my online gratitude diary and my almost daily writing of a post in my Dutch blog. As I hardly ever skipped any of those things, except my daily writing in my Dutch blog, but that is also something I gave myself some leeway like ‘only when it feels good’, so also here I have been pretty successful, I guess I could even say very successful..

So looking at the above I guess I can just say that I have become much more successful in many things after starting with reading Think and Grow Rich and working from it. And I think the most important thing here is that I have programmed myself for success, or at least have programmed myself to be more successful than before. And another major thing is that my outlook in life, my outlook towards the future fully changed. As right now I am much, much more determined to achieve the things that I have decided to achieve, no matter what. And again, also here the Principle of Successdecision‘, comes in handy, As I basically don’t change any decisions anymore, even though I have no clue where that goes, as over time things change, so also somehow goals needs to change, e.g. when you reach a goal. But somehow I didn’t encounter that ‘problem’ yet, so there doesn’t seem to be a problem.

So have I become successful, have I achieved success? Well, not really to my own standards, to the goals that I have set, as I didn’t achieve any of them fully. But looking at the above I guess I can consider myself pretty successful. So I guess I have some right now to write about success, to write about how to achieve things, as I am certainly on the right way.

So going back to the original question of who I am writing for, or maybe who I have been writing for, I have the feeling I have been writing to myself mostly until now. But in the background I have also been writing to people who are in a similar situation as I was when writing a particular post. And yes, today I have certainly been writing to myself, as in between the lines I read a lot of perfectionism, meaning that I am way too hard on myself.

So looking at the above I guess I can change my outlook on my blogging here now, as I can consider myself much more successful than I was before, and I guess even more successful than most people. So next thing is what to write about from now, or how to write, and maybe most important, for or to whom, as I think the suggestion of Leo Babauta of keeping your audience in mind is a very good suggestion.

Going to the moon

Today I discussed my draft presentation for the internet city project with someone, and yes, I compare my project with something like flying to the moon. As when John F. Kennedy set the goal of going to the moon there was no budget, no technical capability, not enough knowledge, no experience and not enough time (target ‘this decade’). But that didn’t stop us from going to the moon, on schedule. So the idea that grew slowly in my mind over the last two years or so may be similar to something like flying to the moon, read ‘impossible’, but with the right mindset I believe it can certainly be done.

And maybe I should study a bit more how he did it, how it was prepared, like similar to my project, it would probably be announced by the Mayor of Cagayan de Oro City and not by me, and it would probably be attached to him, not to me. So let’s try to figure out what was all behind that simple statement of intending to go to the moon by John F. Kennedy.

Well, found some background on the moon program on Wikipedia.

Know thyself

I am more and more amazed with myself, as it seems I am having more and more self confidence and seem to know myself much better than before. And strange, to put the label ‘visionary’ on yourself, as to me visionaries are very important successful people and I am not, or at least not yet. And also you don’t put positive labels like ‘visionary’ on yourself as ‘doing normal, then you do good enough’ as the Dutch say (and I am Dutch and grew up like that).

But I am more and more confirmed that indeed I am a visionary, like today a friend even confirmed that. And before I always wanted to be a manager, as I thought that was a leader, and as I thought as I know now, that is what I was supposed to be as that is how I feel and felt. But people didn’t see me as a manager and as I know now I am not a manager, at least not a good one. And I am not sure I am a leader, but I guess in the end at least the term visionary fits and knowing that makes me feel much more comfortable as now I don’t ‘have to’ be a manager or a leader. I can just be myself.

So what my partner always said and apparently saw is that indeed I didn’t know myself well enough. And everything around me seems to confirm that my new role, my new title fits me better than anything before. As somehow people are starting to listen to me, are starting to take me seriously. And the strange thing is that my ideas are more crazy than ever, even more crazy than I could ever imagine. But somehow it fits, somehow I am, I have to be this crazy guy with these crazy ideas. And I am not ashamed of that anymore and I understand more why people have difficulty understanding and following these things. As they are just built differently, built to be a manager, or maybe a worker or a leader. And not a visionary, not the crazy guy.

And yes, all of this makes me much happier. And it shows.

Convert defeat into success

Last Saturday I did not write my posts and I kind of felt guilty about it. And it was even worse, as I kind of planned to catch up yesterday, Sunday, but in the end I also didn’t do it. And it feels like a severe breach in my daily writing habit and I am not sure what to do next, as I just don’t feel like writing anymore.

And the strange thing is that I actually achieved quite some successes. And I wanted to write about it. But I didn’t.

So somehow I have slowly programmed myself for success, but somehow it also affects things, like writing here. So how will I convert this defeat of failure of not writing last Saturday into success? Like what can I learn from it?

And the strange thing is that one or two times before I skipped a day, but somehow this time it feels more severe, it feels like giving up writing here, writing every day. But I made a promise to myself to write here about my road to success, about how I went from my deepest down to my highest up. And I am not up yet, but somehow something changed. As people are starting to listen to me, are starting to support me, no matter how crazy my ideas are. But somehow my subconscious does not seem to accept that I can be successful, can have success.

So maybe that is what I am learning right now, that it is important to keep my promise and that I should keep writing, also now I am starting to become successful. And yes, one of the most important things towards success seems to be persistence, nothing more, nothing less. So maybe people will even start to read this, even though until now I don’t think many people are reading or have read my posts.

And yes, I should go back to the beginning, to why I started this site, this blog. And evaluate where I am standing right now compared to that time. And even though recently I have been complaining a bit again I guess, I may be amazed about how far I have gotten, and maybe how little I still have to go.

Big dreams

Today I searched for ‘inspirational quote big’ and found and sent the quote “If your dreams do not scare you, they are not big enough.” from Ellen Johnson Sirleaf. And I chose it because today I got a bit scared, as it seems my biggest idea, my biggest project, or actually projects, seem to come alive. As one of the people I was talking to today was thinking about how to implement all the things I have in mind. And I felt scared because my dream is so big that nobody, or at least not people in their right mind, would dream that big.

But somehow I have been able to at least have people think about what I have in mind, and it seems more and more people are kind of supporting the idea. And I have no clue how this should all come together as I don’t even have the budget to fly to Manila or something, but somehow people seem to believe in the idea and consider it possible.

But yes, if Napoleon Hill is right, the the deepest downfalls can result in big things, big dreams, as everything I am working on right now goes back to about two years ago when my life fell apart for the second time and I even considered committing suicide. As I felt like I had nothing left, no friends, no business, no customers, no income, no money, no nothing. And looking back the strange thing is that at that time things came to me, like the book Think and Grow Rich, that somehow got my attention in a way that I started working from it. And I still feel a bit embarrassed about how I got it, the person I got it from, as I have some very bad memories related to that person. But it seems indeed that God or the Universe has strange ways to achieve things, as somehow things seem to start to come together right now, even though I don’t feel really successful yet and the financial success I am still looking for seems still far away.

But yes, somehow I started believing in the Principles of Success, so somehow my subconscious has taken up the idea that I can really get what I want and that I don’t even really need to do the effort for it, that I don’t need to do it all alone, something I felt I had to all my life, until recently. And those thoughts go back to Abraham Hicks, who indeed points to the Law of Attraction, some kind of law in the Universe where you indeed just have to think, have to feel what you want, and it will just come to you.

And looking back right now it is indeed a weird mix of all kind of things, like desire and belief and dreaming big. And somehow indeed action and persistence, but I can also confirm that it seems only inspired action works and that forcing things hardly ever or never work. And yes, somehow also autosuggestion works, but also there, only if you are really serious and defined about what you want.

And no, I’m not there yet. And yes, looking back one of the main things or maybe even the main or only things is something like self confidence. As somehow I am much more confident in what I want and what I do, as I don’t mind so much anymore what other people think, as it is my life and they are my dreams.

And yes, I was a bit scared today of what I have set in motion. But somehow it is also a very good feeling and makes me, again, more confident that anything is possible and that the things I have in mind have a good chance of becoming reality.

So yes, I can certainly recommend that you buy the book Think and Grow Rich and start working from it. Or any other book that suits you, helps you gain more confidence. As it seems that is the road to success.